This is why i draw

Dunno if it's in the right category... forgive me

But all my stupid feelings i had before about .... haha i don't even remember them now.

i just went on omegle with one question "Ctrl+C"ed into my computer's memory which was "Hi, What is the cure to laziness?" he told me i was looking in the wrong place, and i was like, i'm just trying to find great ideas...

and that was the ANSWER! INSPIRATION!!!

then i just suddenly somehow wanted to draw, just a meaningless doodle on OC, not knowing what i was going to draw, just guidelines for anything...

it's an unrelated path, but somehow it's just that when it just clicked, with the guidelines, i didn't know what i would end up with, you know right, the same feeling of indecisiveness like "Where do i go from here?" "what do i want to be when i grow up"

as meaningless and cliche as anime eyes could be,

when i was drawing these eyes, everything else around me just went blank, i didn't notice it's freaking hot outside, and i left the door open, i didn't notice the sounds, nothing, just me and these eyes!!!! i zoomed out and somehow the small bits and pieces i drew came together

and in the end a pic of mirune just came up

and i just remembered "This is why i draw"

now i can't believe how foolish i was before this, with the animation, i was afraid to fail, afraid that little things would deviate me from what i would want it to be,

i can't explain what i just understood, maybe it's best summed up as "have fun and enjoy whatever you do."